Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Hit me baby one more time....
So I fall back to sleep and when I wake up I am thinking osteopenia? What the hell is that? Sounds like some country in Europe, between Luxemborg and Lithuania, I was never really good at geography so I guess it could have been.
Of course I look up osteopenia. I am a internet junkie, of course I am going to look it up. It is defined on Web MD as: Osteopenia refers to bone mineral density BMD that is lower than normal peak BMD but not low enough to be classified as osteoporosis.
So let me get this straight. I finished up the shitty part of my treatment in mid 2008. I get a bone scan and find out that I have another side effect.
While I know that this was a possibility, once again going back to the "menu" of side effects that the docs give you while you are going through treatment I didn't expect it. I expected to be finished. Done with side effects. I still have lingering neuropathy that shows up every once and a while like an unwanted house guest and sometimes stays like one too.
Getting another side effect is like getting punched in the face without expecting it. Except, with that the black eye you may get will go away. Osteopenia however stays with you. Yes I will take more pills (oh goody just what I wanted to do spend more fucking money on meds and take more fucking pills) and do weight bearing exercises (walking, which I find extremely boring and tedious, and no there will be no running, not with these knees) to help offset the osteopenia.
Sometimes I wonder why my body hates me so much. I have been pretty good to it, (well we wont talk about those college days, that is just to be expected, and what happens in the dorms stays in the dorms) It attacks me with cancer (overproduction of cells) My immune system attacks me (hypothyroidism) I have vitamin d deficiency, I have no clue how I got that besides I am not outside enough? My mind attacks me with depression.
It is very frustrating to think you are out of the woods only to look up and see more trees.
Like I always say:
Cancer, its the gift that keeps on giving.
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