Monday, October 25, 2010
It has been a rough week. I found out that one friends breast cancer returned (on Friday) went to another good friend's memorial service (on Saturday) Saturday night I was an emotional wreck. I considered not going into work on Sunday on my on air shift on 106KHQ, but thought better of it because, well for one, I need the money, and two, we are short staffed, and I didn't want to use just having a shitty weekend and possible mental breakdown as an excuse for not going to work,so yeah I have a puritan work ethic.
So I went to work on Sunday, so freaked out and feeling like I was coming mentally unglued, but I knew that I could pull off a good show. I can fake that no problem. I am a professional after all. But you know what? I didnt' have to. The music lifted up my spirits. I was the only one in the building for the majority of my day so I was dancing and singing at the top of my lungs, (thank god the Ustream wasn't on or else I would have never heard the end of that from my co workers.
We use facebook at work. One of the perks for working at a radio station. It is considered part of the job to post status updates, ask questions to the listeners and post where we will be making appearances, etc.
So as I was on facebook I came across a friend of mine's status and photo. It was a shrine for his wife. She had passed away from cancer a few weeks back. I had worked with him on Crossing Jordan, which seems like a lifetime ago, and we were casual facebook friends. I was stunned. This would make 3 instances of cancer that I saw that weekend.
So Monday rolled around. For a Monday it was going pretty well. Had a decent Vic McCarty show. Monday is always lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings, another perk of the job. Was having a pretty good day.
Then the local paper came.
I usually read through it pretty quickly. Not much news, small town.
Then I saw the obituary of someone that I worked with at another job a few short years back.
That made 4.
A good friend of mine said I should ponder and wonder why this happened. Its God's plan.
I am not going to ponder this.
Sometimes God's plan just plain sucks
You can label me a heretic. I go to church when I can. I pray. I do believe in God and do believe he does have a plan.
That doesn't mean I have to like it or agree with it or anything of the kind.
Like my friend Donald Wilhelm (who was the #2 in this blog) would say "It is what it is"
But dammit, fucking number 4
Seriously. Is it just me or is this ridiculous? How can there be so much cancer around and there is no "cure" or meds to prevent it. I am wondering what epidemologists say. You know the people who study these things?
I am sick of the outbreaks.
I am sick of reading about another friend or acquaintance getting a recurrance or a diagnosis.
I am sick of seeing the goddamn pink ribbon on my cat's friskies.
October is Breast cancer awareness month.
To me every month is cancer awareness month.
I think we are all aware there if cancer
Now how about we start fucking doing something about it?
Mel is the producer/co~host of The Vic McCarty Show. Listen live Monday~Friday 10am-noon eastern on wmktthetalkstation.com
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