Last blogpost was about my friend Sarah aka The Carcinista's decision to stop treatment and live out the rest of her life on her terms. I recorded a podcast with Sarah on Wednesday April 27. Podcast went on Empower Radio 2 days later. On Tuesday May 3rd I had learned that she had passed away. Now they gave her a month (from what exact day I am not sure that was given, found out about it when I looked at facebook on my iphone, I am finding out more shitty information about my survivor friends that way.)
Of course I cried. I was totally stunned and blown away. How could this be? Less than a week...
I was beside myself with grief.
I still am.
I actually thought about giving up my advocacy. I didn't share that with anyone. It was a thought that went through my head. Why am I doing this if my friends keep dying? How can what I do make any kind of difference?
Then I saw a post my my facebook wall from Angella Hamilton. I had called her after I had found out Sarah had passed and left a tear filled message on her voicemail.
This is the post Angella had left me:
Mel is the producer/co~host of The Vic McCarty Show. Listen Live Monday~Friday 10am-noon eastern time on wmktthetalkstation.com
Check out my podcast The Cancer Warrior on Empoweradio.com Available on demand and also available on Itunes.